As you may know, Trevor and I welcomed our daughter Hannah last summer. I love her beyond measure, but she completely turned my world upside down. When Hannah was about eight weeks old I was diagnosed with Postpartum Depression. At that time I was overwhelmed, stressed and anxious. I cried all the time and I fantasized about running away from home. Other symptoms of PPD are a loss in previous interests and a change in appetite; I experienced both of these. I didn't ever feel hungry and I had to remind myself to eat (especially because I'm breastfeeding Hannah). I didn't care what I ate and I didn't want to have anything to do with cooking. It didn't have the same appeal to me, which felt strange because I had loved looking at cookbooks, trying out new recipes and eating at restaurants before I had Hannah. I just felt like a hollow, empty shell of myself.
Luckily, I was diagnosed early and I found good support right away. I started seeing a counsellor and I see my family doctor regularly. My family and friends have been incredibly supportive and I know I wouldn't be where I am now without their love. I still struggle sometimes, but things have definitely improved. Through this experience I've learned that I'm not trying to get back to "my old self" but I have to create a "new self"; one that has been through this experience and picked up a few lessons along the way. So onwards to my new self it is - I'm hoping to be able to find some more time for blogging. At this point I've got the motivation to write (and I've been doing a bit of cooking and have a few photos) but I need the time, and time is a precious commodity in the life of a new mom.
Thanks for reading, and if you've been checking my blog during my absence, thanks for waiting for me. I know this is a heavy topic so I'll follow it up with something lighter :)
Trev and I tried out Rge Rd last weekend (thanks to Grandma for babysitting!) So I'll get a post ready for that as soon as I can.